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How Are You?


(I’m sorry the emo and selfish me still takes over this blog.)

Akhir-akhir ini lagi down banget (seperti semua yang baca blog ini ketahui), dan pengennya ditanyain “Gimana keadaan? Are you okay?” tapi seperti kata The Beatles “And in the end, the love you take is equal to the love you make”. Kayaknya karena gw bukan tipe yang perhatian bener sama temen, makanya ga dapet pertanyaan ini. Ketika gw tau temen gw lagi ada masalah atau down atau berduka, gw cuma akan mengucapkan ‘kata-kata pembangkit semangat standar’. In my defense, I’m not good with words and I often can’t find the word to say. Tapi alesan macem apa itu? Ga bisa membenarkan sikap gw selama ini. So I know I shouldn’t be complaining that I don’t have people asking me about my current state.

 

So, how am I?

I’m not fine. I don’t think like I could get through this. I’m ashamed that I failed. I let this failure brings me down. I can’t get up and fix this. I don’t know how to solve this problem. I’m so scared. I’m afraid I’ll let my parents and my family down. I’m not fine.

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